Trying to leave behind/Hoping to have (2009)

Trying to leave behind	Hoping to have/find/do
Stagnation	Evolution
Intense emotions	Intense emotions
Some Sadness	Occasional sadness
Good health	Good health
Excellent energy level	Amazing energy level
Stubbornness as in ambition without an object	Will (power not testament)
Toughness	Strength
Roughness	Firmness
Selfishness	Altruism (c’mon, who am I kidding)
Irrationality	Irrationality
Some tears	Some or less tears (or revert to tae bo)
Some smiles	Less smiles (too much smiling gives you wrinkles and the interlocutor the wrong impression you like him)
Unrealistic expectations	Expectations
Projections	Aspirations
Unfounded belief in the goodness of mankind	Don’t know, but am about to change my mind on this one
Not looking for love	Still not looking for love (is all good here)
Healthy dosed pessimism	Pessimist alertness
Men	@#$%^
blank	(how many lines do I have to feel?)
Time for others	More time for myself
No SMS initiative (successful one from last year)	No SMS initiative
Email initiative	No email initiative
Writing stories for friends	Writing stories for myself
Listening to friends or people I hardly know	Selectively doing that; boundary is key
Cynic	Cynicism is good
Anchored into reality	I like this one, will keep it
Agnostic	Still Agnostic as I have no deistic inclinations
Brunette	I like brunette
62 kg (before Christmas....)	58 kg
170 cm tall	170 cm tall
Some smoking	Less smoking
Beer	Less beer (250 cal per can)
Sweet wine	No wine for a while (500 cal per bottle)
Very few books	Quadruple more books (who am I kidding, I won’t have the time, but well, it is on the list)
Little time with K	More time with K (damn 24 h)
Sleep little	Sleep (right)
My shit somehow all over the place	Have my shit together (and together it will be)
Writing	Taking a conceptual sabbatical (am done blogging for a while)
No theatre plays	At least 7 times
No classical music concerts	At least 6 times (am deluding myself)
No opera house attendance	At least 6 times (haven’t been in 2 years, most probably I won’t reach next year).
Very seldom coffee with friends	I can skip the coffee with friends altogether (my liver hurts from so much coffee and my head is filled with nonsensical chitchats); a phone call would do; email me, I might get back to you. Or not.
Very short fuse	A longer fuse
Forgiveness	Will think about it
Forgetfulness	I have the memory of an elephant, so the answer is no.
Some occasional confusion	Increased clarity, more “a-ha” moment”
Impulsiveness	Counting to ten before I explode; or you know what? Let’em have it! Rage repression is not healthy.
Naivety	Hahaha
Innocence	???
Honesty	Damn it. I always keep this one.